Fate vs. Responsibility

So, no blogging was done yesterday, but I guess you figured that out when nothing was posted. Yesterday was a long but hopefully great day. I have to wait about two weeks to find out how good it actually was. I know that sounds werid, having to wait later to see how good an old day really was. I guess I can give you some insight into what I am talking about.

It was my hope/chance at a new place, a new future, a new career, and who knows what else (that really is putting a lot of stress on yesterday). Afterwards I am forced to wait until decisions are made by others that I now have no control over. You know, it really sucks having your future in someone else's hands. I guess if I had the belief that everything happens for a reason I could easily put it in that category and move on, but that is a hard idea for me to grasp. I feel like that is sometimes an easy way out. Well, if it is alreay pre-determined what I am going to do, then I can't screw it up. It seems that is much easier than really taking responsibility for my life. But I digress. Instead I just sit aimlessly hoping for the unknown.

On to another facet of my interesting life, Josh and I will be going to look at houses again tomorrow. I am so excited. That is another one of those fate vs responsibility questions again. If the house we are "supposed" to buy is out there then how much work do I really have to do. I mean if it is fate won't it just come into my life. See I think not. I must do some leg work on my end.

On to my final comments for now....I hate being sick. I was sick last week all week and then again today I wake up with a sore throat, cough and cold. I mean really what they heck. I am hoping it goes away soon...in the mean time i will dope myself up with orange juice...GO VITAMIN C!!!